A New Understanding of Integration
Fresh developments for JB in the realm of Christ-Surrender
Dear Family,
Some fascinating stuff has been happening in my process.
I’m gonna share three recent pieces of writing that illustrate these developments—illuminating an evolution in my understanding of integration.
I.
I seem to be experiencing a deep shift.
The simplest way to put it is…
Shifting from trying to ‘integrate all parts’ and ‘be all of me’….
To giving it all to the Fires of Christ’s Love — offering it all to the Inferno of God — to the Waters of Life, without being attached to any of it needing to stick around or integrate, and trusting that God’s Fire knows much better than me what to dissolve, what to integrate, what to transfigure, and so forth. God knows better than me what is relevant & important for my vessel in this lifetime.
There is a deepening realization that I Fully Trust the North Star of Suprapersonal Christic Love. Christ is my North Star and I can surrender my process to Him. And therefore the most direct and efficient way to work with all parts & energies is simply to give them to the Christ Fire of God’s Love.
🙏🏼❤️🔥🌳✝️🌳❤️🔥🙏🏼
This approach may also be valuable for others and need not center on Christ. Whatever Suprapersonal Face of Divinity or Emanation of Divine Love you most deeply resonate with, could be worked with in this way. Or simply Nameless Supreme Source.
Blessings.
🙏🏼❤️🔥
II.
I shared that first piece a few days ago, then shared this one yesterday on IG and FB:
Truly an incredible day. I received a transcendent healing experience.
It began with an intentional cannabis ceremony barefoot in nature, then I walked to Sauna Village — an amazing German healing center.
Once there I began praying intently while laying in the sauna & cold shower, then when I entered the ice bath I slipped into a samadhi-like experience — reminiscent of bufo. I was merging with the Christ Light.
I then began spontaneously hearing/repeating a mantra: “Deepest dungeons receiving Christ Water.” I repeated this many times and witnessed the Waters of Life pouring into the most exiled deserts & dungeons within the (collective) psyche. I saw deserts blossoming into gardens and witnessed a long-exiled prisoner in chains freed from bondage after aeons of torment.
I nearly passed out due to the Total Immersion in Light, then got out, sat in sublime meditation for a while, then went outside where I did naked yoga in the sun while witnessing a pond & small waterfall. I meditated further & spontaneous prayers & mantras continued to come over the next hours as I intuitively offered my Total Body to the Heavenly & Gaian Christ.
Various other benedictions & mystical experiences occurred as I surrendered to another round of sauna & ice bath. I spent a long time prayerfully sending Christ’s Love to many specific family members, friends, & to all beings in all worlds.
I felt ancient karmic coagulations unraveling & pouring down from my root, spiraling into the Gaian Body to be metabolized & recycled.
It felt like one of the deepest personal & collective healing experiences that has ever occurred through/as my vessel & field. I am tremendously thankful.
The Divine Suprapersonal Omnipresence of Christ is with you always as your own Heart & immediate field of awareness. Be still & relinquish all knowledge in order to Rest As Pure Knowledge.
Offer all to the Divine Blazing Presence Of Now & you will be shown your True Home & True Self as Love. ❤️🔥
III.
Finally, I wrote these words today as part of another longer piece which will be published soon on my main Substack:
God-Surrender massively simplifies things:
Essentially, you just give everything to God. Give everything to the Omnipresent Christ Fire. Give everything to Divine Presence.
If the words ‘God’ or ‘Christ’ don’t resonate with you, you can simply conceive of this as giving everything to the Ever-Present Fire of Pure Presence.
Literally, any thought or energy or experience or emotion or idea or decision or seeming contradiction, can be surrendered to the Immediate Field of Christ-Fire.
This is similar to what David Hawkins described in his book, Letting Go. The simplicity & elegance of this technique are dawning on me anew.
What you can begin to realize is that your life is taking place in/as an Infinite Presence of Loving Intelligence.
This Intelligence—what I call Christ-Fire and many other names—knows much better than you what to integrate, what to dissolve, what to balance out, and generally how to best align & harmonize your being in the way that is most karmically resonant & auspicious for you in your current incarnation.
So, you can just give everything to the Field itself.
What this actually looks like in practice is essentially attuning yourself to the Silent Field of Pure Presence that is always with you—within and beyond all words, thoughts, or phenomena.
Through experimentation you discover the highly personal ‘openings’ or access points that reliably work for you, and you then regularly meditatively-prayerfully attune yourself to the Silent Presence.
And you simply offer everything to this Silent Presence.
You access its Inmost Flame as purely as you can in any given moment, and you devotionally offer your Total Body to this Presence.
You let anything and everything slip away into its Fire.
It’s okay if you don’t feel ready to engage in this level of devotional surrender. You can begin by experimenting with simply surrendering a few thoughts or sensations—to see how it feels.
Yet in my experience, the more you become willing to consecrate your Total Self as a devotional offering to the Beloved, you will be brought into an Integrative Furnace of Love. The Omnipresence will simply begin washing away what is not auspicious, and will re-harmonize & align your being on deep levels—spontaneously & automagically.
You don’t need to ‘figure out’ your precise balance of Christianity VS New-Age-ism, or any other sort of balance of various wisdom-streams.
God already knows what your perfect balance is.
So you can simply give it all to God, you see.
Give it all to whichever suprapersonal Face of Divine Presence-Grace most deeply resonates with you. They’re all emanations of the same Light of the Forever Beyond.
Give it all to Christ. Christ knows what to do with it.
A key part of this realization recently for me has been the dawning understanding that I don’t need to “integrate all parts” in the sense that I don’t need every aspect of Creation to somehow become infused in the way I express as a being in this lifetime.
The Field—our Deepest Self—has already integrated all parts. The Christ-Fire has already integrated all parts. It is already perfect wholeness, perfect knowledge, perfect intelligence.
In that sense, we’ve already integrated everything. When we surrender to That which is already perfect wholeness, it naturally knows what is most auspicious for us to embody & express in our current incarnation. It naturally washes away that which we need not embody or express (any longer) in this lifetime.
For years I had been maintaining a (subtle) attachment to an elaborate project of “integrating all parts,” not wanting to reject any aspect of my being. In a sense this was an honorable and important stage, yet I’m now seeing that a more expedient, simple, and surrendered pathway of integration is available: Ceasing to attach to anything or try to ‘figure it out’ and instead simply pouring all of it into the Fire of Presence.
The Fire Knows. The Ocean Knows. I can just give it all to That. I can allow That to slurp me up entirely, and I can fully trust what emerges on the other side.
On a deep level I have already known this—having gone through many death-and-rebirth processes—yet I suppose it’s now sinking in on a deeper level.
All of the inner drama of my pet self-work projects can simply be dumped into the Roaring Blaze.
The Roaring Blaze is all that is needed.
It is hilarious how this maximally simplifies everything down to one single-pointed movement.
Just Give It All To The Fire, Jordan.
You are increasingly ready to Give It All To The Fire.
Anything and everything that arises—all samskaric or karmic residues—can simply be offered to the Blaze.
Hah!
Peace.
I hope this is valuable for you.
Christ Bless you and yours all the days of your lives.
Love,
JB
